Tree planted in living water

1:1 Blessed is the man
who walks not in the counsel of the wicked,
nor stands in the way of sinners,
nor sits in the seat of scoffers;
2 but his delight is in the law of the Lord,
and on his law he meditates day and night.

3 He is like a tree
planted by streams of water
that yields its fruit in its season,
and its leaf does not wither.
In all that he does, he prospers.
Psalm 1:1-3

A friend of mine said something really interesting - he said that at the age of 22-23 people stars questioning their life and are "lost" in terms of what they should be doing and their purpose in life.

I guess that's where i'm at - at this moment. A few things had been going on in my mind lately - especially after being to a Christian summer camp where all my beliefs, "talents" and everything that i was clinging to was challenged by God.

And as i said, my whole belief system was challenged during this one week camp and Glory be to Him only for giving and teaching me all these things.

Today I was reminded of these few verses which marks the opening of the book of Psalms. I was more reminded of the third verse which says

"He is like a tree

planted by streams of water
that yields its fruit in its season,
and its leaf does not wither.
In all that he does, he prospers."

During the summer camp that i went to, a few things happened that allowed me to see that I was not this tree planted by the streams of water. I think my interpretation of this verse at the moment goes like this:

Blessed is the man who delights in the laws of the LORD, he is like a tree planted by the streams of water. When summer comes, he knows that he will not wither. When autumn comes, he knows that it is time for him to sleep and prepare himself for spring. When winter comes, though he is weak, he is still strong. When spring comes, he bears great fruit.

When thinking and reading it that way- it appears that this tree - knows exactly what it has to do in its due time. This is a tree planted in living water. Whatever it does will bear good fruit at the end because its food source will not fail it.

During the summer camp, when things went chaotic and not exactly as i planned, I became defensive and over-protective of myself. I stopped trying. I stopped relying on God and went into a self-reliance mode. As weird as it may sound, but i did do that. I forgot for a while that I have a great God and I can trust in Him fully. The worst part about it is - I thought that i did depend on Him. I thought that I was clinging to Him and His grace and mercy, but in reality - I was running around in a circle trying to find a solution myself without involving God.

1:1 Blessed is the man
who walks not in the counsel of the wicked,
nor stands in the way of sinners,
nor sits in the seat of scoffers;
2 but his delight is in the law of the Lord,
and on his law he meditates day and night.

3 He is like a tree
planted by streams of water
that yields its fruit in its season,
and its leaf does not wither.
In all that he does, he prospers.
Psalm 1:1-3

Have you ever thought that the wicked could be yourself? That little voice inside of you that keeps on telling you to scoff God, to sin, to depend on yourself rather that God's laws and promises?

Well... before i've seen the result and consequences myself - i thought that would never happen - but i believe it now. That little voice might not be me - it may well be the deceiver - but i do believe that I too am capable of deceiving myself. I don't need satan to tell me lies all the time - my sinfulness, selfishness and pride works as well as the lies that satan tells.

So my prayer is:

1. pray that i will always be humbled and be reminded that I am in need of Him every hour

2. pray that God would give me the strength to do the things that are good and true - to cling to Him and His promises in whatever circumstances - may it be good or bad.

3. in all of this - pray that i would be able to make sense of my experiences and see how the Gospel is at work in my life.